Going To Sleep.

Go back to sleep little girl
I know your tired , I am too.
Go back to a world where you can lose yourselves in idea's and outfits.
Go back to switching off and smiling.
Stop tearing everything up to shreds.
Give its a rest little girl, Give yourself a rest.
You cant live in a different planet and still not think your good enough for anyone.
No ones going to look after You.
Maybe you should just learn to look after yourself.
Go back to sleep little girl.
I know your tired, I am too.

...

Who told you I was strong?
Was it me with my words and my way?
Who told you I was strong?
Whoever 'they' were ,
'they' were wrong.

Did you just assume I would survive?

I thought you were weak
I thought you were weak
Im just a baby
Im just a baby
I want to be adored

When you came with your words and your eyes I was blindsided.
Wasnt I lucky?
I used to think of myself as lucky.
I crumbled into a million pieces
I am Scattered in a million pieces
Where are you?

I was cared for once
It wasnt enough
I'm crumbling
I'm scattered
Pieces please find me.

Nothing can cease to matter anymore like it did when you mattered.
I can't be a baby when Im no ones baby
I want to be adored.
I thought you were weak.
I thought I was strong.
I was wrong.

When does it end?

Its been three months I think. altho I can't be sure, it seems like a week sometimes and other times it seems as tho it's been forever.

I'm sat in work, Listening on headphones to songs while I work and from nowhere I stumble across a song, and in my isolation in a room with 4 people I start to weep.

When does it end?

If anyone knows will you let me know?

I didn't think anyone understood but the words of the song let me know at somepoint someone understood exactly:

Oh my friends.
I've begun to worry, right
Where i should be grateful, I should be sattisfied.
Oh my heart would clap and dance in place with my friends.
I have so much pleasure to embrace.
But my heart has returned to sister winter
But my heart is as cold as ice...
Oh my thoughts I return to summertime
When I kissed you
I kissed you through the night
All my gifts I gave everything to You
Your strange Imagination,
You threw it all of it away
Now my heart I returned to sister winter
Now my heart is as cold as ice
Oh my friends I have returned to sister winter
Oh my friends, I apoligiseI apoligise

Fish

.
We both choose to scribble our hearts lament
I chose paper and you chose cement
We both choose to live
I choose to live in my head
Baby, you choose to just live in this tangeable universe we were given.
The universe holds no place for a girl like me.
When we were together
Merged together
Theres was just no room for me anymore.
Theres was just no room for you anymore.
It got ill when I needed you most.
It got ill when I needed you most.
I got ill when You needed me most.
We both chose to scribble our hearts lament
I chose you, you choose cement

Karen

I know your sadness .
I see it in the mirror everyday.
I know your fear.
I live with it everyday.
I've never been sure where it came from.
We have to love it musn't we.
Because it is ours.
Beacuse its Ours to share.
When you want to hide under your skin
I will find You
When your not sure where you begin
I will find You.
Im just as scared as You, Fragile like you,fighting a war like you are.
for what feels like forever.
Just know when you want to hide under your skin
I will find You
When your not sure where you begin.
I will find You.


Love You x

'They'

They had a great way of taking all that was great about Me
Holding up some less than perfect mirror and reflecting it back as less
Untill all I could see was everything I lacked
The saving grace is 'they' never mattered too much to me.
I'm not even sure who 'they' were.
To feel incomplete
To fall down
To lack something
is natural
Im still learning.